Vampire Trix

Hello everybody… long time since my last serious post

Sorry for me not posting a lot lately but I’m really getting tired of it all. My life hasn’t been too easy or too fun lately. Fun has been strangely absent, just like any form of luck.
But don’t worry, it’s not going to be a “rage” post, I’m going to explain why. It’s time I get this from my shoulders.

This year, 2011, started quite well, and I hoped it would have been a better year for me than 2010 was, but after a short good start things started to get really bad.

First of all, I don’t know if you all know this, but I haven’t had contact with my parents ever since they kicked me out in 2009. I still remember it well, it started as a little fight, but it was the last drop that made the bucket overflow. Long story short: they kicked me out and I had to live together with my girlfriend, Kirsi, with who I am still together, now for nearly two years and three months. But I’ll come back on that last bit later. Seems like my father stopped taking his pills a week or two earlier. And guess what happened… I got kicked out. And I have a violent dad: that day he tried to get me off the stairs by pulling on my hair with his full weight. Never lost so much hair as back then.

My parents, except one time when they put my remaining stuff at my grandmother (I learnt about that from my aunt, who has helped me), haven’t contacted me. Or well, they didn’t try to. But in the beginning of this year, thing seemed to change. My father tried to befriend me on Facebook and well… my girlfriend Kirsi is still angry at my father and mother for doing what they did. So Kirsi ignored the request.

He tried to contact me in various ways until one day, I still remember it well, I was walking to the railway station when I got a phone call from my dad. Believe me, it’s awkward when somebody who ignored you for the last few years contacts you. Especially since they didn’t seem to care a bit about me. I’ve had to pay my school costs myself (thanks to my school I got the schoolbooks from last year for free, but paid for the books this year). And I get about € 108.00 a month to get through, so I don’t have much budget. They never even suggested to help me.
So he called me and asked if I would like to come to a family party. That’s right, a party to see my whole family back. In the end, it seems, they only invited me because my dad’s mother asked for me, and it was her birthday party.

After a lot of arguments with Kirsi we went to that party, and well, except one phone call I made to them, to congratulate my mother with her birthday, I haven’t heard from them since.

My birthday was the 7th of April, and the day I’m writing this, we’re almost 2 months further and I still haven’t heard a thing from them. Or from many others.

All of my friends congratulated me, but my family almost all forgot me. Except the family on my mother’s side, they are on my side and have helped me since I got kicked out.  Of course, thanks to Facebook most of my friends send me a message or wrote something on my wall, but a few days before my birthday I wasn’t even sure if I would do anything for my birthday. Situations at home, like my girlfriends mother getting an operation, simply cancelled all stuff there was planned for my birthday. Not that there was anything planned.

In the end, I invited my best friends to go eat a kebab. Lots of arguments with Kirsi later and moving it 2 times, we finally did that. From them I got my only presents… 2 cd’s and a dvd, and I’m really grateful to them for giving those things to me. It’s not about the amount of gifts, but the thought. But it still hurts knowing that they are the only ones who really thought about me.

I’ve had the most worthless birthday I’ve ever had, believe me. Simply because it wasn’t like a birthday. Didn’t even receive a postcard . And to make things worse, I usually don’t have to go to school on my birthday because of it mostly being in the easter holidays, but this year it wasn’t. Not like that was a problem, it happened a few times before… but it made a lousy birthday even more worse.

The only positive thing was that I went to Jeff Dunham the day after my birthday. But as I’d like to say, one light can’t light a whole dark night. It can light a small clearing, but not the whole night.

But that’s not the only thing that went wrong, also my whole love life is fucked up with more arguments between me and Kirsi, but we are kind of stuck together. Don’t recommend anyone to be in the same situation as me, as I’m being teared apart.

Also, school is really annoying me, it’s simply not fun at all anymore… I get bored constantly, I’ve got way too much schoolwork and barely free time, and when I have free time I don’t know what to do. Boring ass life…

And worst of all I’m afraid to loose my friends again, as I didn’t give them enough (well, none) attention because I wanted to save my relation with Kirsi but that’s doomed anyhow.

And on professional part: still haven’t sold a copy of Faster or Faster v2, says enough. Going to give it away for free soon, it’s just been a big waste of time like everything else. Don’t know if I’ll continue working on XOOPS too, haven’t been able to install XE3. Everything I do is a big waste of time…

God I hate my life.

Kevin